Have you ever found yourself in a challenging moment—whether it's an argument with a loved one, a challenge from a colleague, or criticism from a teacher? In these moments, we can either fall into old patterns of denying, blaming, or deflecting, or we can take responsibility and grow from the experience. It’s a choice that can shift everything, but it requires vulnerability.
After years of inner work and personal healing, it feels like these challenging moments are coming thick and fast at the moment. They seem to be arriving now to help my nervous system integrate new wiring. The pace feels intense, and it’s far from comfortable, but I suspect it’s part of the process of growing into new ways of being. This week, I’ve reflected on a series of messages and ideas that, when combined, seem to be calling me to reframe my perspective on growth, vulnerability, power, and progress. A quote from A Del of a Life by David Jason resonated deeply with me: "While you're in the middle of cracking on with it, it's easy to lose a sense of how much living you've done." I often get so caught up in the next task or goal that I forget to acknowledge how far I’ve come. This led me to another realisation about how we’ve been conditioned to give our power away to external circumstances. We often believe that we can only feel good when something “good” happens. I catch myself thinking, “When I do this, then I’ll feel happy,” or “Once we’ve finished that, then I’ll have more space.” This mindset traps us in a cycle of waiting for change to shift our emotions. But what if we can access the power to shape our emotional state from within, without needing external events to dictate how we feel? As I reflected further on these thoughts, I encountered a powerful message from Sounds True publishing house that shifted my perspective even more: "One of the reasons you’re here is to stand out and make an impact. Your entire life has prepared you for this moment. The question is: Will you go forward, or will you stay in the same place? If you are like many of us, you may have been singled out for your differences when you were younger or even now because you thought for yourself and had a growth mindset. While in the past, these differences might have been seen as weaknesses, today they can set you apart. They make you a leader. They can help you become a person of influence in your own sphere." That message ignited something in me. It made me realise that the struggles and challenges I once viewed as weaknesses can now be reframed as strengths—strengths that propel me forward. Even more, I feel a responsibility to use those struggles as powerful tools for growth. This reflection reminded me to shift from a passive stance of letting circumstances dictate my emotions to adopting a more active, empowered mindset. The very qualities that once made me feel “different” are now my greatest assets, helping me shape the future I desire. Embracing this shift has become a real-time experiment in taking control of my emotional state, rather than waiting for external changes to “fix” me. It's challenging, especially when moments of tension arise. In the past, I might have instinctively deflected, shifted blame, or even played the victim, not because I saw them as those qualities, but because I would have felt justified in my point of view, seeing it through the lens of old patterning. Let me give an example of where my own, old fears kept me from seeing a situation as it truly was. Renting a home is something relatively new to me; for most of my adult life, I’ve owned property, which felt secure. In the last few years, I’ve had to rent due to shifting circumstances and priorities, and that was fine until, only 18 months into a tenancy, the landlords—who had previously said they intended to keep the property as an investment for at least five years—also had shifting priorities and decided to move in themselves. I had very little notice, and it happened just a few weeks out from Christmas, so it wasn’t the greatest time of year to move. However, I made it all happen, and we moved into a new rental. It took a huge amount of energy and came at an emotional and financial cost. So once I moved, I made it a priority to ask the owners about their plans, and they explained they plan to retire to the property one day in the future after selling their business (which they had no immediate plans to sell). Then I got a bit shaky when we had a flood and everything didn’t get sorted according to the timeline the property manager had conveyed. That radio silence reminded me of the silence from my previous landlord in the run-up to their decision to move into the last place. So, off I went looking online to see whether the owners had their business for sale, and I found a listing that had been up for some months. That was a year ago. I mentioned it to the property manager, but they were unaware of any plans. So for the last year, I thought the owner’s business was on the market and felt that, at any moment, the ground might move beneath my feet. It wasn’t until my loved-one’s heart attack that I sought official clarification because I knew the latest listing had a deadline sale, and I wanted to be prepared if we had to make alternate plans. It turns out that their business is not for sale, only the land and buildings they operate from, which comes with a lease for their business until 2060. They still have no current plans to sell their business and move in here. All that worry for nothing. And when I reread the real estate advertisements, I could clearly see what I hadn’t seen in my previous state. There are so many situations in life like that, where we get triggered by something a colleague said and blow it way out of proportion in our minds because our childhood had trained us to be hypervigilant and alert to threats to safety, or we get defensive about something a friend did or didn’t say, assuming motives that are through a damaged lens of old beliefs about whether we are worthy humans, or we get controlling as we get stressed because that is how we feel safe in our bodies, the list is endless. I now see these moments as opportunities to stand firm in my emotional power (rather than fear) and take responsibility for how I choose to respond. Then, I came across another powerful idea that really resonated with me in terms of growth: "The universe is urging a fearless inventory of your soul. What lies beneath your polished facade? How much longer will you hide your vulnerabilities, convinced they weaken you? It’s precisely these tender spaces, your perceived imperfections, where real strength and powerful connections reside." This idea was a call to embrace what I had been hiding, to confront the vulnerabilities I had been avoiding. It challenged me to take risks--to trust someone who genuinely deserves it, to allow myself to depend on another without the armor of skepticism. It asked me to listen not only to my heart but also to the deeper truths of my spirit, and to bravely express my true desires. A few days later, a situation arose that forced me to put this into practice. Instead of defaulting to frustration or self-justification, I paused, assessed, and chose to respond differently. Though uncomfortable, this pause allowed me to reconnect with a part of myself that had been buried under the chaos of past reactions. By approaching the situation as something new—an act of vulnerability in itself, rather than dismissing it as 'just another familiar bit of nonsense'—I realised how much room there is for growth in those uncomfortable moments. This reflection on vulnerability led to a deeper conversation with a close friend of mine, one that challenged me to examine the nuances I hadn’t fully looked at before. My friend views vulnerability as a core part of connection, believing that sharing openly and often fosters authenticity and growth—both individually and in relationships. For them, embracing vulnerability is a strength, a way to break through barriers and truly see others beneath the surface. However, I approach vulnerability with more caution. For me, it’s not about blanket openness but rather a deliberate choice. It’s a balance between being true to myself and knowing when to protect certain parts of my inner world. Over time, I’ve learned that vulnerability isn’t something to share indiscriminately. Instead, it’s about discerning when and where it’s safe to open up. This isn’t rooted in fear but in wisdom and self-preservation—ensuring my energy and emotional space are protected. What stood out in our conversation was the realisation that vulnerability can be both a bridge and a boundary. While I recognise the power of openness in building connections, I also see value in restraint. Sometimes, choosing to hold back isn’t about hiding but about creating space where we can decide when and how to reveal ourselves. In this way, vulnerability becomes an act of self-respect—choosing to share on our own terms, rather than for the sake of sharing itself. As Sounds True reminds us, embracing differences—and even challenges—can help us step into the roles we are meant to play in this world. By embracing both our strengths and vulnerabilities, we unlock deeper self-awareness, and what once seemed like insurmountable barriers can become gateways to progress. So, what about you? How do you approach vulnerability in your own life? Do you allow it to be a source of strength, or do you shy away from it, fearing discomfort or rejection? Growth isn’t about waiting for the perfect moment—it’s about stepping into the discomfort and choosing to see it as an opportunity rather than a threat. What if the very thing you’ve been avoiding—whether it’s an honest conversation, a bold decision, or a leap of faith—is the key to unlocking your next level? The question isn’t whether you’ll face challenges, but whether you’ll meet them with old patterns or a new, empowered mindset. Will you keep waiting, or will you take the next step forward? 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