While I’ve known about the flight-fight response for decades, and have studied it many times over again in relation to trauma, this week I heard a different perspective on it that gave me a personal ah ha moment – something I always relish.
Yvette Rose explained the four trauma responses/reactions in terms of ways that people show up in different situations. Some were the familiar responses when triggered, but she was also relating this to the way people show up and make decisions in everyday life: Fight Response/Wiring
Flight Response/Wiring
Freeze Response/Wiring
Hide Response/Wiring (sometimes called Fawn) - Freeze can easily roll over into this response
As I say, what really struck me as she talked about this, and guided the audience through various exercises in her What Happens After Trauma Masterclass, was that – unlike previous discussions on flight/fight – she wasn’t just referring to what happens when a person’s flight/fight is triggered by a stressful event. I realised that I can show up day to day as a bit of a Hider. As a recovering people pleaser and co-dependent I have been actively aware of these patterns and learning to have and hold healthy boundaries for a couple of years now. However I’m probably mostly this when I’m in my beginning phase of anything – jobs, relationships, new situations – like a chameleon adapting to new territory. Then – under everyday stress– I will default to Flight mode, which happens often as I then feel under pressure to keep up the chameleon facade I’ve created. But when pushed too far I will go into a Fight response, like inner me is fighting for its sovereignty. And if I feel attacked, I will most often Freeze and then go into a Fight response. Then I’ll come out of that back into Flight before eventually settling back into Hide as my peace keeping survival responses kick in. It is fair to say I was aware I cycle through different responses at different times and in different circumstances. What I hadn’t really been fully aware of is how chronically my wiring is in Flight mode. I always thought about this as the person who physically runs away from arguments or awkward situations. I can think of a couple of times I’ve actively wanted to flee when I’ve been pushed too far but, as I say, generally Freeze and Fight come into play then. But I can relate to the restless legs, I have a tried and tested range of techniques I developed in meetings and training courses to remain focused and engaged, like poking myself with a metaphorical stick to stay with the programme. And since physically running away as a child seemed not only stupid (it was generally cold and rainy) but scary, I guess I ran away inwardly instead and became an over thinker. I had difficulty being me because I had become a chameleon, whatever people in authority had wanted me to be in order to avoid trouble. There was absolutely no away I ever wanted caught on the back foot or doing anything less than what was expected as it brought harsh punishments and humiliation. I wanted to be ten steps ahead to avoid any conflict or confrontation – or anything negative befalling me. I thought about the relationships I’d left, the jobs I’d left, the interests I’d left behind, the country I left behind. Mmmm, it was an interesting ah ha moment to see just what a pattern for flight I actually have. Yet now I am embracing life as a single parent, and look forward to the solitude when the kids are with their dad, and love welcoming them home when they return. It’s the first time in my entire life that I get to be with just me, and get to fully own that and accept who I am and what I value, believe and prefer to do and be in life. It feels unfamiliar, and I still want to run at times. I get itchy feet and start to plan travel and activities. But I’m becoming more aware the grass is never any greener than right at my feet, wherever they are in that moment. As I talked to my daughter this week about her personal moment of breaking out of her own patterns, it was gratifying to see that doing my inner work had the added effect of helping her see herself more clearly too. I was very proud of her for speaking her truth to a friend. She hadn’t been unkind, but she delivered unwanted news and they were upset. Being someone who, like me, is empathetic and often a people pleaser, she felt overwhelmed because she could so viscerally feel their disappointment. She wanted to distract herself from the pain this was causing her, but I encouraged her to stay with it. “Where do you feel it in your body?” I asked. It was in her tummy. So I asked “And where do you think it goes if you ignore it”. She is astute enough to know it stays right there, so I encouraged her to work through it rather than suppress it. “Get it up and out” I said, and for her that meant talking it through. This is much healthier than it reinforcing a pattern and causing physical problems later in life. The patterns I’ve observed in my own life demonstrate this well. Often if I’ve experienced a big upset of some kind, following the pattern of headaches, stiff neck, shoulders and sore tummy, I’ll often spend several days afterwards with quite an acute pain in my abdomen working its way out as I “digest” what has upset me. One of the things Evette Rose is well known for is her Metaphysical Anatomy Technique, working with our biology to unwind these emotional blocks and unhelpful patterns we have that – once addressed – lighten the load and help build confidence. The point she was making is that they way we act when we get really triggered isn’t an isolated incident, is an accumulation of a lifetime worth of experiences – sometimes several lifetimes if it’s a predisposition we’ve inherited from our ancestral lineage. After all the personal inner journey work I’ve undertaken and integrated, learning how to regulate my nervous system now seems like such a key thing to pursue in relation to really allowing the fullest, most authentic expression of me in my body. And that seems to mean, aside of decoupling from co-dependent tendencies, that I take the time to simply stay with the impulse to run, to feel through my pain, frustration, anger or other uncomfortable feelings that come up in the day to day stresses of life when every part of my neural network says “go go go”. This knowledge and practice of “staying” which means to simply “be with” or “be present” seems so obvious now. Of course, it’s in this practice where my body will learn to feel safe and confident. “But you are confident” a friend of mine said. No, I am not always confident at all. The more I get to know the true me, though, the more confidence I gain; so I opt for embracing the lessons my body is trying to teach. What about you, in what way are your everyday responses different to those when under varying degrees of stress and pressure? Becoming aware of what happens within us is the first step to making choices about whether to and when to change our reactions, which is exactly what changes our outcomes. If you enjoyed reading this, you may enjoy Put Mature Parts of You in the Driving Seat for Better Results, How to Break Free of Addictive Relationship Patterns, Want Better Health? Be Shrewd About Stress, How to Take Things as They Come When You Have Learned Not to Trust and Taking Your Own Space. To be the first to receive these posts, you can also opt to subscribe to my blog.
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Joy
9/4/2022 22:06:28
Insightful. Thank you for sharing
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Shona
9/19/2022 11:45:21
You're welcome, glad it was insightful, it was certainly enlightening for me!
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